Another rant...

Sorry. I just have to rant again, haha. I love this blog because it's like therapy to me, you know? Once I say it here, I usually let it go, or through my mundane texts can see what went wrong/how to fix it. Bear with me, mmmkay?

1. HYPOCRITS.
OMG. It would be so easy to call you out and put you on blast. And I totally should. The last two times I saw you you were on some sort of fucking chemical or hard substance. Ecstasy, cocaine? BAH. And yet you have the nerve to write that you're annoyed with 'people who don't know how to have fun without being inebriated' and that you're taking a hike. First of all, you're full of shit. You always take part in this holier than thou enlightened stance where the life you live is SO REAL, SO AMAZING, SO 'IT'. You claim to be a vegan, but I myself have caught you eating shit you shouldn't have. You also claim you do it for your health AND YET you continue to get smashed and to roll on whatever the fuck else you deal at least 5 times a week. You're a fucking mess. It would have been so easy, and it was so tempting, to get at you, but I realized it was petty. So instead, I'm going to stew on it here, poop it out and move on. But still, kid, your ignorance and your arrogance never ceases to amaze me. Fuck, weren't you the one who invited me to Green Eggs and Kegs? BAH. Get the fuck outta here.

2. FAKE-NESS.
For this purpose, the word exists. God, I am so sick and tired of dealing with materialistic assholes. Don't get me wrong, I love spending money when I have it as much as the next person, but damn. Don't you people have real goals and dream and aspirations? All it is is money with you people! And it doesn't end there...the constant flaunting too, damn it makes me SICK. And sometimes it's not just money, but the flaunting of gathered cultural capital. And it's not like a proud flaunting, it's a flaunting that resembles a dog marking territory, or gaining some kind of upper hand in a duel. Just no. I can't wait to leave you suckers. GET OOOOTT.

3. FACEBOOK SUCKS
I seriously hate facebook. I try to limit myself, but it is hard. I mean, the information you gain is so accesible and easy. But still, it sucks up my time, patience and motivation. I always end up feeling sorry for myself because of it. I look at other people's fantastic lives, friends, good times, bodies, etc and I get sad and sometimes feel so unaccomplished. When this mood hits, it even passes into times when my friends communicate with me. I start to hate hearing other people's good news. I get bitter, I get cold. I don't know, maybe I focus too much on my bad news? However, looking back, all I have had this month is bad news to share. From failure to abandon to rejection to tough decisions, nothing but shit. The longer I stay off facebook, the happier I can and will be.

Speaking of bad news, my spring break was absolutely awful.
1. Still bitter about the Julianna thing, I couldn't help but feel angry over the situation she put me in. In a way, it's partly her fault I ended up doing nothing for spring break. Bitch.
2. I spent 660 dollars on new tires. FUCK. However, they are amazing and they provide a great ride.
3. I HAVE SO MUCH HOMEWORK. FUCK PROFESSORS GIVING WORK OVER BREAK, SERIOUSLY, FUCK YOU.
4. I have keratitis in my eyes. It's a viral (not herpes!) infection where I basically have chronic bloodshot eyes. It's from my contacts. Boo. I can't wear contacts for awhile and my eye doctor is a total dick and a half. I hate him and his stupid gray ponytail.
5. On Thursday, we put Zackie down. He was 16 years old. :( I get really sad when I think about it and I get this lump in my throat. I don't think anyone really gets it. Some people tried the sympathy thing but it only made me angrier because it felt so forced and contrived and in a way unbelievable. Other dog oweners knew what to say :/ Whenever I enter the house I expect to see his pathetic little body curled up in his miserable basket in the corner of the living room, and not seeing it kills me. I couldn't cry in front of my mom, I had to be strong for her, and I was. She said she feels better about it. I do and I don't. We got Zack at the same time my brother was born. I thought we got them at the same place, and always vouched to return Bo (lol, jk). I'll miss him. RIP ZACK.
6. My interviewees are douches. Fuck sociology.
7. I'm so stressed over the work that is due this upcoming week. I feel so lost/ behind/ disorganized.
8. Alienation by friends. Faaaccckk.
9. Japan :(
10. RADIATION !!!! :(

My mom is watching The Breakfast Club. Cute. I'm going to go and complete more things on my to do list and figure out if I'm going to Boston tomorrow or not. FACCCk.

I just want to read and cuddle.

xoxo